Lucid Tripping tracks in my mind Misty Breaking down outside Solemn At the end of the high Weakened Under lonely sky Sore In between my toes Rotting Out these bones Waiting For the night to come Hit By the piercing sun Trapped In this aging cave Fear Fleshly laid Arrived I’m here to hit Rush My life is lit Birds To fly up there Soaring Fresh night air Wishing I could go somewhere
Morning haze
It’s in my eyes I blink faster to wake I drift in and out Of the two worlds I know One of truths bent Mysteries I uncover in the night Where a representation fools me Into thinking I can This place is lighter Harder to reach And rarely do I go there for long Or out of choice It’s hard to know why I do Escape perhaps Or the cauldron where my thoughts rest Before meeting their reality This second place Is my waking place I am woken by it And it’s serious fumes There is no denying it’s importance As my eyes blink the gravity sets in My skin rests harder On the bed where I sleep The haze has gone now Eyes peeled head cleared I have returned back from my travels And the mist of my morning mind
Germs
You cut my every morsel Grip and pull it downwards My earlobes hang like lead When you visit Germs I’m not your safe space you know The place to go when it gets cold I’m a person in here But you play your game Rip rip - then you laugh at me I don’t know if you know this But when you come I would swap everything in the world For you to leave Me That probably ignites another of your cackles doesn’t it That rattles In my vertebrae As this chest Weakens I want to say I’ll win Kick you But I am succumbing To your Serum
Spit
1 Those fucking words won’t come Out under the melting tongue Spit your truth From the booth Wish I could 2 Verse is stuck Blocked and chocked Dry lips No good I should 3 Rhyme out Structure in Pop your mind Shoot the Shit -
Eat
I cannot configure This view Absent of you Time without Punctuating commas Like this A routine Lunch or Breakfast Dinner maybe To hold This moment The inevitability Of these Years Is their pace Day to Day All the while Held By this Just sit And eat With me
Baby shampoo
I stand and wash in this syrup It is soft and yellow and gentle and kind Drip drip I taste the golden tang Open my eyes and remind myself Sting sting It’s like the bath you washed me in The one I splashed in Luke warm Now it comes down from above Raining memories Drop drop
Parisian smoke
Smoke sniffs up and out A deep inhale of mist for my longing lungs I pull and release Justified by the young gay souls Smoking near In a bar I will visit only once It bellows from soft lips between thoughts Rises under me, from students Who sip wine and spray black breath What is my wish, if not these clouds To hug, to ground me Here Who would I be without this yearn To soak the air of its spell By a waking mind ready to kneel To my vice of choice And it’s wish to vanish Down my hollowing throat
An organic child
I pick life from the blackened earth A one pop pull and through With spikes green and an orange tube Now ascending, from the blue Her dry skin of ordinary touch And soft hands yet to feel Now clasp food the rain makes She intuitively knows its real But time will tell it’s story Slowly and begrudgingly so For the truth will bare it’s naked fact That food, it cannot grow Drugs and pills litter fields In every square but this It’s rare to find your food grown From nature’s natural lips Maybe she’ll live to a greater age That knows not of this place Where only the elements of god bathe The ground with nourishing grace Yet she’ll have been here now, today Just the once in her early youth To pick her dinner from sturdy ground Lived it’s glorious truth
Lords
Climbing the stairs Finding your seat I’m here A home for the evening The theatre of Lords Under floodlights The white ball swings And the clock ticks And the wind slips Between cracks in the seats The chase is on 70 from 50 To be out there Bearing the pressure Rising to expectation What if Those hopes of youth Had become truths What then? Who then? Dreams are just that Dreams. Necessary Moments Of hope My envy Recedes into gratitude For lost ambition Making way for love And company As we scatter out of the ground Along the road Through the station And into the tube I pause My camera snaps And I am overcome Thankful the stars Aligned themselves Without my doing
Seeds beneath the snow
I find water in spring Beneath sands of the desert Where dry golden caps Protect rivers below Through the summer I plant Without care for the sun Seeds beneath the snow Hiding sparks yet to come In the autumn I find Silence in the city Where songs of sirens Rain through the streets Under darkness in winter I live for the night And stroll with the foxes Until the rise of the day And when I searched for hope She was everywhere And I smiled I could stop looking now